I never write in my journal, hah, this is so weird, I should do this more often. Be prepared for what I'm about to write, casue it's a bit creepy I guess, well for me... in a way... BUT ANYWAY!!
So I had this dream last night where I was at my mother's work (It's a prep school called RUmsey Hall, very prestigiuos) and they have this head master's house (that I know by the back of my hand cause I clean there for money over the summer) and for some epic reason I was baby-sitting Ciel Phantomhive from black butler (look it up, very awesome anime) and Sebastian Michaelis (his butler) was there to look after him too. I was only soposed to be there for a few hours and then the parents would pick me up. (God I wish I could've drove in that dream) But for some reason they weren't coming. And if you don't know I have some anxiety issues (past mental trama, don't really want to get into it) So I started to freak out and CIel was sitting there just starring at me. When he called Sebastian over and commanded him (cause he can't refuse) to comfort me.
Now, I had this MAJOR crush on Sebastian a few months ago before I got into Assassin's Creed and for some reason he popped up in my dreams again. So he walked me over to the mud room (it's kind of small) and hugged me, just hugged me.....
I have to tell you, I had never felt so relaxed and at peace in anyone elses arms (not even my own parents) than I did with his, I felt every button, every detail of his body, it was like he was real.... I just stood there hugging him and he hugged back just as tightly. IT was the most amazing feeling I have ever felt in my life.... I don't know why I felt like this (and I don't know why i'm getting teary-eyed right now, this isn't me) I just can't put me finger on it.
I somehow want to keep that feeling with me all the time, but sadly I'm loosing it and I wish the dream never ended, I just want to know how...